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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 06:47

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

(And it was in our own minds.)

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She loved him until the end.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I said to her

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

How many of you have had your parental rights taken away because of lies and no truth whatsoever, and did you prove the lies that were told about you to be false either through drug testing or another way, but still had your rights taken?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She married twice! .

Why do untreated borderlines always blame their partners when they actually think they are normal?

He resisted the act ,that day.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But, we were locked up after school.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Comes on , in middle age.

All the time i was locked up.

What made you feel satisfied about your life today?

I never cut or harmed myself..

But it wasn’t much.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I don,t even have a pension.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I have no regrets .

We all went to grammer schools

I could never make a relationship work though!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

What did i know ?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

When she asked me how she looked .

Put me off passion for life!!

Would this be the day?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Why did i forgive my father ?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Ive learnt so much.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I waited trembling.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So whats the point in blame.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

It was going to be , some day.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Was to survive, this bastard.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She found it foreign!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

So, i spoilt her more .

She was in good health!

My life is so biszare .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Who then, do I blame.?

My family never makes their pension either.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was very sick at this time too.

I will be 64.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Especially a lifetime of it.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I was seconnd youngest,

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

This is soul school!.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She wouldn,t have been !

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But ive been too sick for many years..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was scared of men, in general

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One cannot live in the past .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I write beautiful poetry .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Im still living with it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

We were not on the streets..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I think the readers, may guess!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was 9 years of age.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And i lived it daily.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He knew the spot.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.